inspired by lentils

inspired by fat bridesmaid and her lentils, i've embarked on a little daily-workout vow. 90 minutes of cardio daily until holy saturday. i started on saturday and have completed 26% (ahem4workoutscoughcough) already! that means i've walked (or wogged) 16.25 miles in the past 4 days! i'll be at a marathon by the end of the week.


why, you ask, should i jump on the lenten boat with only 15 days to go?? ummm, because i weighed 183.0 on friday. YIKES. that means i'd gained about 9 pounds in two weeks EVEN THOUGH i was working out regularly.


but i've closed march on a highish note. i worked my way up to FIFTEEN push-ups and THIRTY sit-ups, which is pretty unbelievable. i can also jog just over a quarter mile straight (about 5 minutes, i think). i won't weigh in for keeps until monday (that's my system now, first monday of the month) but despite an off-day yesterday that prevented us from having our planned dinner --pizza & fries instead (yup, we suck)-- i'm down to 180.4 today, which is better.

and my calories, i count them. i don't really constrain them to a particular number, but i count. key for me is fiber & water, which i get in my delicious banana-oat muffins* and my veggie soup & small baked potato lunch.

so. that's the news. i'll update the weight stats on monday (yup, i'm holding on to hope that i won't have to bump the ticker back up to the 180s-- don't judge).

*recipe:

1 box tj's banana bread mix
1 cup unsweetened applesauce
1/2 cup egg whites (or two xl eggs)
1 cup oats

bake in lined muffin tin at 325 degrees for 30 minutes
makes 12 muffins at about 175 calories each

back on track. literally.

eating hasn't been spectacular lately. as for exercise... after about a week and a half of forgetting, skipping and not being able to,we got back to our floor exercises and i'm up to 15 mediocre push-ups and 27 excellent sit-ups. i'm really going to start attacking my abs, i think, since i know they can take it. ALSO, i actually WENT TO THE TRACK last night. it was a bit cold, but by my estimation, i walked1 mile (3/8th each way & 1/4 around the track) and jogged 1/4 mile (around the track). i thought i was going to die, and i felt like crap-- so bad i couldn't manage a shower for about three hours after i got home, but, goddamnit, i am BACK, BABY! i've scheduled out my increases and promised myself that when two wogs in a row involve a straight 1/2 mile of jogging, i'll go in for a deep tissue massage and a haircut.

i miss you guys, but my real life life feels easier. like... well, almost like i'm not expending energy

thanks for understanding

i think i'll keep the blog, but delete the content? maybe once a month update my fitness level and weight. i just... i can't keep letting it all hang out.

closing up shop... maybe

well. this is odd. all i could think of yesterday was shutting down this blog. i've had this problem before, with thenest.com, where i kind of... let it replace real life? and i realized yesterday that i didn't want to blog ANOTHER crisis and let my fear and anger stagnate somewhere out there while i wished for catharsis. i meant to blog my weight loss efforts and instead i blogged my life. and, well, i don't want to do this anymore.

so i think i'll delete the blog. but i'll keep the email & the screenname so i can comment.

i'm going to give it a couple days, though, before i commit. and, ummmm, i'm not giving up on losing weight. no way, baby. i'm jogging TONIGHT.