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Tuesday, August 18, 2009

what will it take?

so, i started doing this-- i mean REALLY doing this-- on january 8, 2007. let me tell you about that...

on my honeymoon in september of 2006 i wore size 20w jeans. and flats. NO heels, NO skirts and my red bikini for about a hot second. when i got home? and suddenly the stress of planning the wedding was gone? and my diploma arrived in the mail? it was like, oh, HEY, when did i get THIS fat?

so i had this pre-cognition phase were i calendared and planned and thought about losing weight for about two months. i chose that date because it was a monday after new year's and NOT new year's day, because, whoa, what an awful day to try and start a diet!

i feel like i'm at a loss now. i'd had some pretty high hopes of being DONE by something like january 4, 2010. those hopes? are more or less dashed now. i feel sort of adrift. i'm afraid this is going to be another 10-month plateau. and i can't figure out what it will take to get me back on track.

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